Saturday, April 6, 2019

Kit Kelen #1193 - mum died


1193
mum died


this morning

sleepless at four
and I was at the border

this is the one
beyond the world

thing I can do now
no one can find

upstairs and sniff
through the clothes
sort the pictures again

in the forest
in the sky

hide in the words
where death won’t find me
hide in the library

not my country
but I live it now

cling to make a truth

everyone comes
her his own ways
and goes as well

this is the most natural thing

there was
nothing official yet

the thing I can do
is listen and wait

look into the dawn
and the darkness is spread
grows now
from whatever it is
comes to light

mum died
this is the proclamation

she was gone already
why should I euphemize?
she wouldn’t

91! an innings!
unsuffering at last

and here we are after
something of her yet

the house is almost empty now
and soon they’ll come to paint  

no radio nor little bird tells
we’ll have to put it in the paper

her whole life a denial of this

mum’s gone
and not to anywhere

there is nowhere she can be
nor is this the world it was

her gospel I’m here to speak
this is the one with all the words missing

cosmos mum-less
you won’t cook up a God to cope

mum died
I was awake with it

this is the news today
a truck hit the turning world

do we each go to our belief?
and are we ended there?

catch myself breathing
how can that be?

5สน 2˝, eyes of blue
really is was
she

who heard me
and was my help

mum of the ballroom dazzle with dad
mum of the kitchen song
every little wisdom was
arms to cradle
here to heart

mum’s gone
and she was gone already

ye know not
and she didn’t did
that’s how it is with this disease
time had told her out

we need another tense for this
the still with us in hearts and minds

mum was already gone

no church of tricks got up from fear
will make her the less gone

mum died
there are no angels
except the nursing staff

I’m glad she never buried me
glad for her she can be…
not at peace… there’s no one now
and nowhere
there is nothing

‘thinking of you’
what else can be said?

mum died
and we are catching up

‘in sure and certain knowledge’
do they tell that for a joke?

of course think up
when everything is pointing down

how else is it safer
a hundred billion of us already in the ground

long lessening it was to her
were there a hundred billion griefs?

we are with her wishes now
soon these ashes
so the sky
over every ocean spread

what if there once were a heaven?
now that heaven’s gone

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