Kit Kelen #1142 - in the mirror

1142

in the mirror

I saw myself as a fat man

ugly, stupid, unaware

saw myself falling

I made the DIY abyss

I recognized the slave, dictator 

got a whiff of myself as well

skin shone a sun of

I let the wilderness around me

saw only up as far as the sky

knew why I was here and nothing I’d wished

I talked it over with him-in-there

I too took time

was there no other in my eyes?

had a map once – flat on the page I lay

I lost a clock in looking and gathered there

it was all about me – was and is and always will

even and especially gone

accompanied myself, head full of names

I boxed it all up, gave vent

took off my face but there was no other

piled through the eye of a needle

(they were much bigger then)

I had a few words, left a sign

I taught myself a lesson

in smaller and smaller writing

I rubbed with the picture glow

saw myself in borrowed clothes

no insect could pursue me  

time ran never deeper

roads ran away from me

such was my moment in the mirror

where I first learned to swim