Kerri Shying R #595 - ever wonder what your purpose in life is

ever wonder what your purpose in life is

it was the nine hundred
and eighty-fifth text
I said look now  
gently as the telling
can be done this
here is unwanted

still it comes
that powerless pain
surges   from the sea bottom
my undertow

the bathtubs where I crouched naked
fists over ears the ranting man
paces telling me at volume

what a piece of shit disappointment
I have turned out to be and

just
what he wants how it's going to go

the next day you
sms again
inside I bleed
I roll my eyes back
so far they see my spine

always wanted
one of those see-through
umbrellas to keep me dry
while
looking at the traffic the impending
crashes flashing lights
an impermeable membrane with
my finger on the button

to say stop
is there an app
does that