Chrysogonus #59 - self portrait

self portrait 
after Red Cone & KS

my eyes
could be
a simple line
a way the pencil
will not go
so let's keep them closed!

I can't draw either
a stroke for smile
or lack thereof
let's hide behind 
a thick moustache

a poker face
where nothing's shown
ought to be
simple enough

betrayal!
in the end
my pencil knows
how to portray
a sadness


mataku
setarik garis
hitam pensil
ketidakmampuan
menggambar
biarlah mereka tertutup!

tak bisa pula
tertoreh senyum
atau ketiadaannya
biarlah ia tersembunyi
di balik kumis tebal

wajah datar
tanpa rasa
lukisan
sederhana

pengkhianatan!
pada akhirnya
pensilku menuang
yang tak tertangkap
kesedihanku