Melinda Smith #14 how are you really feeling today

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how are you really feeling today?

(poem composed of rearranged tweets from the Canberra You Are Here arts festival event Civic Interstrange, an intervention staged by the Affective Labourers Union: bus commuters were asked 'How are you really feeling today ?' and the answers were tweeted from @ALUCBR earlier this morning )

today I am not going to blink

9.33 vibrates

on my way

i breathe

stretched

stillness and warmth

i am here

semi-retired

i can outrun the emptiness

very

nervous because I have a lot

unravelling

a miracle

like a trombone trapped in the body of a man

all I want is boundless love

I've tried stealing his wine

If I sneezed I'd shit myself

kind of down

my mind above

the clouds of those words

clouds aren't sadness

a little sleepy but

i won't

deny complicity

stress will someday delete humanity

sadness is real

I'm sorry but I'm moving

I'm scared of all of you

good

if I work hard enough

enjoying the beautiful

at least I know nothing means anything ! That's a relief.

(a part of it)

TENDER AND UGLY

the prospect of getting

better when I have a coffee

unsure if I want to die

every last warm day counts

I am empty

& Positive

today, but hungover

sunshine isn't happiness

follow this

ALONE AND WORTHLESS AND I HAVE MY PERIOD

soarest (sic) back

a family death...a warm autumn...

crying on the bus well trying not to cry

people looking at me, what if they think

happiness is real

(c) Melinda Smith 2016