Lesley Boland #17 a notebook

She is too much like me so that she is better at being me. Her assertiveness leaves me no room to perform. I put the blinkers on most days now to avoid having to look directly at incomplete versions of myself. Outside of the frame is what I want, what I aspire to, natural, spontaneous and correct gestures. I also keep out emotions. For as long as I can. Inside my field of vision there is an immediate task, a computer screen, a notebook and a pen. There is a telephone, a kitchenette and a toilet.