Lesley Boland #10 fool’s errand

I know he is bored of the toys that I have stashed next to me in bed but I keep them there anyway. My hopes are caught up with them and the mixed blessing they represent. I will sleep. He is unpredictable. In the morning I doze while he rattles and shakes, but I want to doze a little longer and he rattles and shakes a little shorter each day. I am no longer enchanted by the pre-dawn. I am terrified of it. New toys are a fool’s errand.