Little Testament
Held in the glare of the fridge by the
temple
the tsunamis of mother’s milk, of love
like breaths
the vagabonds of life’s demure wave
hedonistic branches of history’s
forgotten timber where notes
hide in branches and monkeys cling to
palm leaves as they
simper and submerge
but divine sight goes blind and the
devils are interred
with breasts that jiggle fantastic
coloured lights
while the cat licks itself away, at
least from normal sight
drag the chain from my heart as it was
in Jesus
hobble the hosannas while they take me
down a peg
and drag onto porcupines of artistry and
design
that worships slow obesity, the exalted
rising
onto two feet, two legs, a timorous
response
but the naked man knows he has been
crucified
by all the kindness shown to him in a
multitude of ways
he sings to the heavens of how happy he
is
to be naked and still standing in a land
of blasted twigs
and drowned monkeys slumber in their
sodden dreams
encased in silver rockets, or tin if you
please
that children have blown earthward in
their Guy Fawkes reveries
losing limbs, teeth that smirk like gods
in tasteless wigs
raffles without prizes, meat trays
without claimants,
gods without peoples, days without a gig
insuperable disguises where life’s
bricked up
in songs of beggars, the questions they
ask you
for which there are no answers, from
which there is no rescue
but sadly the days cross their legs like
quixotic priestesses
guarding sacred relics from the
abattoirs of love.
Passing arrow blades into the shins they
access
where priests blow the bubbles of the
Jordan’s mighty flow
and folders of the follies of Wall
Street coalesce
across five hundred slithering tongues
of teenage burghers from the banks of
the insane
hardened heart of Serevu, the Grand
Central pain
wrapping the days in greasy burger
wrapping
Condoleezza, Condoleezza,
Selling the tarts of gas stations
of greyhounds’ hind legs
Selling the photos of llamas, of teenage
beer kegs
dregs sucked by the aged, living in a
vomitous trench
cross-hatched computer chickens dawning
without words
in worlds without sounds of voices, of
countries without covers
vices without sties in which we can
slumber
too slow for the brains of electronic
mistresses
wanting to voyage in spaceship
cummerbunds
and aweful liveries of the servants’ class
drag we we must the cart of human
kindness
containing the cask of human
mindlessness
bound for the train to India and Bahrain
super power to sprain and certainly
endure
harder than Carthage which I burnt to
the ground
lest I uncover in the golden cart of
pain
your open mind freezing in a silent
summer rain
and carving up the chicken of
unsupported wealth
I hunger for a reason to give up my
stealth
the lord of all the fire ants, to his
commission I endorse
the steed of Baptist fire, the honour
and the wealth
I always resist with stockings pushed on
my lovely oval head
which I sewed without looking in my
father’s garden shed
indestructible though very often burnt
to the ground
and turning up in New York or another
part of town
The pattern of my slumbers is another
foolish thing
I kissed the sun’s cold diamond before
fashioning a ring
in which I fought for ages seven suns
and seven moons
and created what I know was the sum of
all my tunes
and buried so with Caesar’s Antarctic
hidden store
I dreamed of the Atlantic until I could
not ignore
the ugliness of my mission which is
never to restore
the skulls of all my victims to the
necks I can adore
or turn into a vice squad where the
bureaucrats are frozen
in frames of lives guarded by the others
they have chosen
to live into the age where terror cannot
rule
to live within the Argus overrun by holy
fools
and threads of life unwinding from a
very holy spool
in which the dreams are trucked by the
actor and the fools
walking tawdry tightropes fat but as if
slender
walking tawdry tightropes one time tough
and one time tender
walking in the gardens of the
overreaching days
with one hand in a straight man’s, one
hand in a gay’s
and one hand holding on to the
unremarking days
and how it is so sweet to live out your
young life
with terrapins and Caesars for your
brother and your wife
holy holy river full of puddles and of
shags
holy holy fountain where you shiver in
your rags
waiting for the prince to come in
silence and in hate
waiting to uncook the fish, to unhook
the bait
waiting to uneat the meat, to scarper
all your days
waiting to unwork the shift, to give
back all the pays
so the gift you gave to jesus can be
given back to you
so the world can be unmade and chaos
then ensue
where you can choose your birth or not
or what to understand
when holy fish ignite the poor to dream upon
this land
Your creativity amazes me Brian! The contrast of 'little' and 'testament' felt by this reader! I will be returning and returning to this one.
ReplyDeleteThanks Sarah - this is 'automatic writing' done in one burst - probably wouldn't be able to repeat anything like this again... so good that this forum exists to publish work like this - doubt that it would be published elsewhere!
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